TO BE VULNERABLE.

Out of my fears

Out of my shadows

I creep out

Crawl out

I look right

And left

Then right and left again

I hurriedly come out of my hole

And run into the shrubs

 

I’m eating away

Decaying

As I’m more than burdened

From the weight

Of life’s processes

I ran to my birdie

My padipadi

And I showed my scales

As disgusting as it is

My shameful figure

As despicable as it is

I opened my festering wounds

Expecting you to bring

The spirit, G.V, iodine

But I saw you coming with others

With their machetes and cutlasses

Prying eyes

Accusing fingers

Spits and coughs

All of me

Poured out on the sheet

And on the street

For all of you

My tears sting

My lungs are on fire

My heart bleeds

My head pounds

As I face my long alley alone

Dragging myself back into it

But I see a distant light

Calling me from afar

Telling me it’s ok

It’s a wonderful feeling

To be vulnerable

Hurts are steps

To becoming vulnerable

I can see someone else

Walking towards me

But you look like my birdie

My padipadi before before

You really look alike

But I can see into your eyes

You are two different people

All I need is to take away the fear

And walk with you

And learn to trust

I will take the baby steps

And I know it won’t end in shame.

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